A tired mind

that loves to write. So many people to talk to, so many things to think about, so many things to do…and a body that doesn’t want to keep up. As a result, this post will basically be random thoughts, strung together with a smile. 😀

Thank you for your prayers. Andrea is a young woman whose blog I read on occasion ; she was pregnant and went into labor on Friday morning. The baby was not turning as quickly as the doctor liked, but everything turned out fine. Please continue to pray for them as they regain strength.

 Work has been very busy lately. This past week we got an excessive amount of merchandise in, and so pricing and trying to find room to store it has taken up a lot of time. We got so much, in fact, that they asked me to come in for extra hours – they were even willing to pay me several hours of overtime. I am happy about the larger paycheck I will be receiving, but I am tired after working every day this week. It isn’t so much the number of hours that I work, but rather the lack of a day to relax and catch up. I guess that is just one little sacrifice I must make.

Right now I am reading “The Spirit of the Liturgy”, written by (now) Pope Benedict XVI. It is easy to read and makes you think. I think I will get through it quickly. Hopefully I can get “Love and Responsibility” back from the library this week, and finish that as well.

I have a bit of writing to do. I need to finish at least 2 letters and an article this week (self imposed deadlines). I also need to attempt to organize a meeting. And finish sending out invitations to my farewell party. And work on Christmas presents. And play with my siblings. And start to pack up the things to leave home. And finish some sewing/mending. And… well, perhaps I should stop. 🙂

This week, I was excited to figure out that Vince Lombardi was Catholic! I never really knew much about him – only the facts that he was a Packer coach and considered to be a very good one. Last week while I was pricing some books of quotes from him (at work), I flipped through the pages and a few quotes caught my eye. One mentioned “the Church” and was said in a way that I suspected that the Catholic Church was implied! My interest was piqued, and so I searched for information on the internet…I think that perhaps I will use his example to demonstrate responsibility and leadership in an article at some point. I still have to do a little more research and thinking, but I am impressed with his wisdom.

Please pray for me as I prepare to go to California. I want to prepare not only physically, but also spiritually. Sometimes I am scared when I think how easily I get stressed out here at home – I don’t know how I will handle it there! – but know I must place my faith in God and have perfect trust that everything will work out. I can’t decide which thoughts are in the front or back of my mind, but one says that I will do fine because I adapt well, and the other makes me think that I am a nieve little country girl, about to be horrified by city life. :p I guess only time will tell.

I have so much to say, but I think that most will have to be saved for private conversations. There is too much of an abundance of thoughts and feelings to bother the general public with…so I will close with the Compline prayer from the “Schoenstatt Office”.

Silent and tired, the sun now goes to rest and Sion smiles on us from afar.

Your dying was an ecstacy of purest longing:
your body never knew corruption.
You reign now transfigured in the “Holy City,”
on Sion, which God has opened to you.

Through the shrine you constantly direct us upwards
to the eternal Schoenstatt where we will one day praise God.
You show us the transitoriness of the earthly world
until you have led us to things eternal.

Teach me to live each day so that my dying
becomes easy, as befits an heir of heaven.
Teach me to judge myself each night in such a way
that after death I may see you and God.

Glory be joyfully given to the Father
through Christ with Mary, highly praised,
in the Holy Spirit full of splendor
from the universe now and in all eternity. Amen.

Puzzle pieces

Life seems like a puzzle; at times, the pieces fall into place so easily…sometimes they need a little adjusting…and sometimes the pieces just don’t seem to match anywhere. In the past few years, I have experienced the pieces not seeming to match anywhere, and no amount of adjusting made a difference. Right now I am amazed at how well things are falling into place.

Today I got the financial aid award letter from John Paul the Great Catholic University. I am very grateful for how much I am getting. Now I move into the next step of applying for loans – please pray that things go well and that I can find low interest rates.

Does anyone have any advice on searching for cell phone plans? I use the phone very, very little – but if I am going to be moving out, I will need something. And I am going to want to talk to my family sometime. Any suggestions on phone companies, deciding how many minutes, etc. would be greatly appreciated. 🙂 Something else for me to research…

This week has been busy! In a nutshell: Sunday I needed to get up for 7:30am Holy Mass, because I worked. When I got home, I talked with my family for awhile – it was fun! On Monday I worked, and then came home for a little while, packed quickly, and left for Schoenstatt. The high school girls camp started at 7pm , and I stayed through Tuesday night…Tuesday was a very long day, I got home about 11:15pm. Yesterday I went to the Mass and youth breakfast, worked, and then watched David all night – thankfully I was able to get a few things done. Today I worked, and cleaned the kitchen (I’m almost done :p ).

Despite the apparent business of the days, I have had many blessings and time for prayer. While out at Schoenstatt, I was able to spend more than three hours in the Shrine, and much of that was alone. Peaceful quiet to pray, reflect, sing, and just sit in the Presence of God…it was wonderful. I have also had many opportunities for good conversations with friends.

One of these days I will get around to posting more than just (boring) updates of my life…. I promise!

To-Day (from “My Prayer-Book”)
Lord, for tomorrow and its needs
I do not pray;
Keep me, my God, from stain of sin
Just for to-day.
Let me both diligently work
And duly pray;
Let me be kind in word and deed
Just for to-day.
Let me be slow to do my will,
Prompt to obey;
Help me to mortify my flesh
Just for to-day.
Let me no wrong or idle word,
Unthinking, say;
Set Thou a seal upon my lips,
Just for to-day.

Let me in season, Lord, be grave,
In season, gay;
Let me be faithful to Thy grace
Just for to-day.
And if to-day my tide of life
Should ebb away,
Give me Thy sacraments divine,
Sweet Lord, to-day.
In purgatory’s cleansing fires
Brief be my stay;
O bid me, if to-day I die,
Go home to-day.

So, for to-morrow and its needs,
I do not pray;
But keep me, guide me, love me, Lord.
Just for to-day.

The merry-go-round of life

It is June sixth already, and no posts from June! Shame on me! But, I guess that is what happens when I get busy running to and fro. So…what have I been up to?

Last Wednesday I was commissioned to make my siblings “disappear” from our house for the afternoon, so I managed to pack them in the van and we went to a local park. We had fun on the swings and other equipment, and right about the time that they all started getting bored, some angels in disguise appeared on the scene: two men with metal detectors searching for coins. Apparently it was incredibly intriguing to watch…the kids followed them around for over two hours, even after Mom called and said that we could return. I took the opportunity to write, pray, take pictures, and walk.

That same Wednesday night, I went to the preview for the new show (“The Odd Couple”) at the dinner theatre where I work. I was a little disappointed, because supposedly it is a hilarious play…but I must just not understand or appreciate the modern humor. I have only heard good reviews from the customers, so I guess that is good for business – but it is practically impossible for me to pretend to be excited over something that I am not, so I am going to avoid talking about the show as much as I can. LOL

Thursday was a crazy day, both at work and home. I spent tons of time on the phone (I greatly dislike talking on the telephone), which was draining – but I got the necessary accomplished. Friday was a busy as well, with work and then a meeting at Schoenstatt. Saturday I worked…Sunday was choir, and then a quiet afternoon at home. Quiet, rainy afternoons are perfect for napping and conversations…but of course, not at the same time. 🙂

Monday was a very peaceful day. I worked by myself all day and so was able to do a lot of thinking; the evening was spent writing e-mails. Yesterday was exhausting. I got up at 6am to get everything ready for the day, before going to work at 8:00. At noon I left work, on to take my Grandma shopping. After an afternoon of shopping, I stayed for supper…and then off to another meeting at Schoenstatt. Unfortunately, I didn’t have time to stop at the Shrine before the meeting, and after, it was locked. 😦 That was disappointing…kind of like going home, only to find the house locked and with no key. All in all, I drove almost 200 miles yesterday, spending about 5.5 hours in the car…

Besides working for 7 hours, today I have been at home. It is amazing how many things all of a sudden seem to need doing, when you are gone a couple of days! This past week, my relative disorganization has been bothering me, so I had to get all my papers organized. I should really do the same with my computer files, but that will probably get procrastinated on for another long while. I have gotten several things finished up today – but somehow my to-do list isn’t shrinking much. Hopefully it will be quite chipped away by the end of the week. Tomorrow is another long day away from home…another drive up to Schoenstatt, but this time I will probably get some “home” (Shrine) time. 😀 Yay!

I guess I am best off to bed. I really wish that I had the mental (and physical) energy to write a thought provoking post, but my brain is starting to drift into lala land, and my eyelids have weights that are getting in the way. God bless and our Blessed Mother keep you all.

“The things that we love tell us what we are.” ~St. Thomas Aquinas

Daily ramblings

One of the things I miss about xanga is that I could see “footprints” and know some of the people who visit my blog. I would like to get somewhat of an idea how many people read this… So, if I know who you are, please say “hello!” and if I don’t know you…say hello too! 😀

Today wasn’t quite as busy as I would have liked, but we had Christmas ornaments to unpack and price so it wasn’t too bad. As I commented to one of the other ladies at work: ’tis the season for glitter inhalation! Probably from now until at least the end of January (unless I get a different job or move away for school), I will come home almost every day with sparklies in my hair, on my face, on my hands and arms, and all over my clothes. It is either glitter or styrofoam (sp?) year round. It is such a joy working in the retail business where Christmas “stuff” haunts us for at least 9 months of every year! *sigh*

Time has been going so fast this year…I thought it went fast before! At the rate that life is speeding up, I think that by the time I am 80 I will be flopping around like a chicken with my head cut off! For the past couple of weeks, I can not remember what day it is – everything runs together. Friday is my day to do dishes, and last night (I worked during the day) I completely forgot it was Friday until almost 9:00pm. 😦 I had a lovely walk and prayer time by myself, though! I probably would not have taken the opportunity to walk as much as I did if I had remembered “my day”. My family went fishing and I had the entire house and yard to myself. It was pretty funny, though, when they came home…it was after dark, and I was outside sitting on one of the steps on our deck – apparently no one saw me. Anna (12), Christopher (10), and Mary (8) were running through the house trying to find me, yelling “Lisa!!!!” “Nooo! You don’t get to tell her!” “Let me tell her!” “Lisssa!” When they came outside, I walked around the side of the house, and they all came running at me…the excitement was over a fish that Anna caught. It was a huge (for the lake they were fishing in) white bass – Dad said it was probably about 15″ long. I hate the smell of fish, so I stayed as far away as I could…but of course, being the only one in the house who owns a camara, guess what I had to do?!? Here is a picture of a very proud and excited Anna with her fish:

I also spent over an hour on the phone with my sister last night…and sat up talking with Mom…so, I did not go to bed early like I had planned. Ah well…I might take a nap on Monday.

Today I finished the last of my three books that I have been working on for about 1.5 months! “The Game of Love” is a series of sermons by Fr. Joseph Kentenich on the relationship of love between God the Father and us as His children…as exemplified by the Blessed Mother. It was very good – although when people asked what I was reading, it was difficult to reply. If I said “The Game of Love”, their response was “what is that?!?” – if I said “sermons” I got strange looks and disbelieving laughter. Now I must choose which books I am going to start next! So many possibilities…

Tomorrow I am going to Schoenstatt!!! It will be the May Crowning celebration, so I am sure there will be many people there. I am planning on going a few hours early to spend some time in the Shrine. I have not been there in over a month, it will be so good to just …be there.

“Let Schoenstatt flourish as a garden of God
which touches the widest circles of the Church
throughout the world,
a garden tended by our Mother Thrice Admirable
as the sunlit meadow of the Triune God.