In the past several years, I have become increasingly aware of the necessity of good leaders. I have also gained curiosity as to the true nature of womanhood and the desire to conform to my findings. I do not want to find only recent examples in culture of both leadership and womanhood; but instead, understand the ideal so that I may reflect those qualities. So many people see reflections as the ideal, and end up with a warped expression that is a reflection of a reflection of a reflection, etc.
In our household meeting earlier this week, a few other girls and I discussed 1 Timothy 2:8-15.
8. I desire then that in every place the men should pray, lifting holy hands without anger or quarreling; 9. also that women should adorn themselves modestly and sensibly in seemly apparel, not with braided hair or gold or pearls or costly attire 10. but by good deeds, as befits women who profess religion. 11. Let a woman learn silence with all submissiveness. 12. I permit no woman to teach or to have authority over men; she is to keep silent. 13. For Adam was formed first, then Eve; 14. and Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor. 15. Yet woman will be saved through bearing children, if she continues in faith and love and holiness, with modesty.
Verses 11 and 12 originally struck me as contradictory to being a leader. How can you lead without speaking? When you are leading, where is the place of submissiveness? It is still a difficult concept to grasp, but it occurred to me that women have the great challenge and responsibility to lead by aura. We are not necessarily called to be leaders in the sense that we rally the troops and lead from the front (however minimally). Instead, our leadership must be in our modesty and strength of character. We do not so much lead with what we do, but by who we are. The qualities of humility, empathy, and sacrifice take on a greater depth… Every person is called to become a strong personality, but women can influence in a particularly strong way just through everyday service.
I am still in search of how to better practice this leadership. Any ideas, comments?